And if people can see you functioning in a completely “normal” way in one scenario, they don’t understand how you can be depressed. You don’t look or act depressed. What they don’t know is it takes everything in me to drag myself to work and slog through those eight hours, and that there is literally nothing left inside after that. Nothing left to give to my children and husband because it takes all the sanity I have just to force myself through the workday. This is my life as a sole breadwinner with depression. But I look like a big success on the outside, so no one really knows.
Critter – it is amazing how “well” people think you are doing. It is like screaming in a crowded room and no one notices. You really have to wonder if people deliberately don’t see, so they don’t have to deal with what they see. I understand the pain “the mask” brings. I sincerely encourage you to seek treatment. xoxo
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And if people can see you functioning in a completely “normal” way in one scenario, they don’t understand how you can be depressed. You don’t look or act depressed. What they don’t know is it takes everything in me to drag myself to work and slog through those eight hours, and that there is literally nothing left inside after that. Nothing left to give to my children and husband because it takes all the sanity I have just to force myself through the workday. This is my life as a sole breadwinner with depression. But I look like a big success on the outside, so no one really knows.
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Critter – it is amazing how “well” people think you are doing. It is like screaming in a crowded room and no one notices. You really have to wonder if people deliberately don’t see, so they don’t have to deal with what they see. I understand the pain “the mask” brings. I sincerely encourage you to seek treatment. xoxo
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